There's always a lil bit of something.

There's always something hidden between words, exchanged between an individual to another. Some might not mean a thing, yet some may be just a hint of how one is feeling, reasons of sadness or happiness. Words of sadness or anger doesn't always mean the same emotion; it might as well be the opposite, don't you think? Many don't find the significance of understanding true emotions portrayed in between speech and body language. A certain few among us actually look for these hidden "emotions", somewhat of an emotional leakage.


Try taking a second to think. For all you know, you may be doing the very same thing without realizing it! For all you know, you might just say that you're okay, cause that's what you want yourself to believe. But what is it that you're feeling? Try coming clean with yourself, and try taking off that mask you wear in front of many others, who believe what you say instead of what you feel. 


I started wondering about this, because I often portray these acts, and I realize it in a delayed manner. I never actually give much thought into my feelings, and put others' importance above mine. I'm not bragging, but many know who I am. I tried coming clean with myself, and yet I still can't stop myself. The fear of hurting someone close to me, someone loved and cared for, is always there. And so I put on a smile, take my walk.


"I'm fine. I'm okay." 


Saying these words may be the easiest thing; and that's why we chose to say this, instead of explaining the pain and trouble we are going through. Why burden someone with your pain? What's there to share when there's only pain and suffering? 


I put on a smile and take my walk. A smile so fake, heck, even I might just fall for it.

-tHe uGLy rEtArD-